Monday, August 27, 2012

Making Amends and Clearing the Air

I've been doing some serious thinking lately, especially due in part to all the chaos and upheaval that is this place. I know it seems like I complain a lot and I don't want to come off that way. I love my job and I love this department (it might be a little masochistic) despite all of its flaws, its a good place. I had a chance to work with the lady who trained me when I first came to work for the department when it was still county wide dispatch. We'd had falling out due mostly to my being young and stupid and her being older and crotchty :). No in all seriousness, it had a lot to do with our supervisor who loves to pit his employess against each other and manipulate them into fighting with each other. And I, fell into the trap without even realizing it. I guess maturity means being able to take responsibility for your words and your actions. It was my fault for falling into the trap and saying things I shouldn't have said out of frustration. But hopefully things are better and I'll be the first to admit when I'm wrong. I don't like drama in the workplace and I sure don't want to alienate the people who will eventually be my lifeline on the other side of the radio. It's been an eyeopening experience, mostly because I've been lucky enough to avoid these types of situations by being smarter. Well, it bites and crow is not the most tasty dish in the buffet! :)